It can be difficult to accept that our plans may not always workout. It is even more difficult when accepting that your plans and goals for yourself are not in line with the purpose God has for you.
I am a notorious planner. I like things to go as I planned and I like things to make sense but sometimes things don’t make sense. Sometimes you have a calling for something you may not have foreseen. It happens this way for most us. Most of us fall into talents and opportunities we didn’t expect. Not saying we didn’t work to earn this opportunity but we just didn’t plan for it.
I am learning, like most of you, that it is ok to go with the flow. It’s ok to fall in love with something that is outside of our plans. Planning and goals can be good. It makes us feel comfortable, it’s a great way to make sure you are always doing your best, but sometimes we have to let go of the plan. I have a difficult time doing this but life is so much easier when you accept what is.
In the past two years, none of my original plans have worked out. Not one. There were so many points where this absolutely crushed me, or so I thought. However, life has really played out in my favor. In two years, I have managed to do quite a bit of traveling both domestically and internationally (though I would LOVE to do more). I’ve strengthened friendships and built new ones. I’ve grown so much closer to my family; immediate and extended. I’ve found a love for running (my first half marathon is in a week). I’ve had a slew of jobs, none of which were Ideal but I’ve learned a lot about my strengths, gifts, weaknesses and what I don’t want in a career. I also earned another degree (MA in International Relations) along the way.
So no, nothing happened the way I wanted but thus far I feel pretty accomplished in most areas of life. I will continue to plan because that is just who I am. I’m sure there will be another time that I will be disappointed when they don’t work out. However, I won’t let that disappointment crush me and I will be ok with what is. Life is a journey and it is meant to be explored. There will always be trials and errors but the best results will always come.
I would change absolutely nothing about my life or my experiences because they have made me who I am. I like me and I hope you like and love the person you are and are becoming.
Enjoy the ride.